'berlygirl: "Present"

First I just want to start by saying GO Teri!!!
Great to see your post. I'm glad you wrote and found myself convicted to give you guys the skinny myself.

It will be 7 weeks on Wednesday since my first post, and here I am:

starting weight: 188.0
current weight: 184.6

So, I suppose that's not bad considering what a bad March we all had.
I did work out and have gotten outside more in general with the nice weather, so I'm on my way there. Food... ugh. Different story. Oh well, at least I know about it and I can work on getting the things that I like and are healthy back into the rotation. Part of it will be easy with the warm months coming because we grill more, I am pulling out healthier items like grilled chicken, pork chops, etc. If someone could keep me away from the coffee (skim milk or not... it's LOADED with cals) that would be a good start. I just can't give it up. Moving on.

I have been writing... a lot, I hope that this trend will continue.

I haven't been feeling well a good bit of the time lately, distracted at work, been feeling seizure-ish a lot as well, including now. Strangely, I don't know when to slow down and seem to suffer. This causes me to go back and forth between spurts of excessive activity (one night last week, 2 miles eliptical, 1 mile treadmill, and about 4 errands after working out including the grocery store) to downward swings of nothing... like this weekend during which I did next to nothing for two days.

I just feel like I have been running around on the same track over and over again for the last 3 years or so and it's beyond the point of being frustrating.

I am hoping to get a reprieve this summer which will break this cycle. I have one week off in May, my July/August schedule is light, November/December and March, May, repeat.

Well, that's all I have for now, I'm pretty tapped out.

Weigh-In Update

Ok, I went and weighed in yesterday. I lost .6 lbs - yep, that's about 1/2 a pound - but I'll take it!! A small loss is better than a small gain:) I have one more weigh-in next month and then they will resubmit my information to my insurance company and, hopefully, then I'll be scheduled for my surgery.

I have been doing a lot better on the exercise part. I walked with the kids Wednesday night and then last night after supper Chely wanted to know if "we walk?" So I walked while her, Ginger and Jackson rode their bikes. I'd say we got a good 30 minutes in.

So how are all of you doing on your goals? Updates, girls, updates! :)

P.S. Thanks for any all all encouragement and prayers.

A second start . . .

Ok, this has been a difficult couple of months for me. I'm so afraid I'm going to go for my weigh in this Thursday and she's going to tell me again that I've gained weight again. So I got my butt up out of my chair and went walking today at lunch. I was able to do it a few times last week to, but I just feel like I'm back where I started. I guess that's why I think I need this surgery, because this is how it always ends up. I lose 15 - 20 pounds and then gain it back and more. I don't know what they'll say if I go in there and I've gained again. I thought about cancelling and skipping this month, but then I realized that my insurance said I have to be in the program for 6 CONSECUTIVE months.

Then, like I don't feel bad enough already, I took my son to his first ever petland birthday party and he started taking pictures with my camera. He just had to take one of Mommy holding the beared dragon lizard. OMG! what an awful picture - and no, I'm not posting it - I already deleted it;)

So my goals for this week - not month - but week, is to walk every day at lunch and drink an instant breakfast shake with 1/2 a banana. Plus I'm tossing around the idea of calling the YMCA (which I have had a membership at for 2+ years and don't use) and seeing what I have to do to get an exercise routine. I noticed on their webpage they do it for free. Maybe that will get me motivated and my butt in gear!

Getting back on track...

Okay, so I don't have the excuse of breaking my @ss to not be doing so hot with my goals. But whatever.
It's over with, I'm going to do the best I can from here forward.

I took Nathaniel and worked out on Saturday, it was SO fun!
He had a kids class at the church from 9 am - 11 am and after it was over, I planned to take him with me to the local Y and have him hang out there for a bit. I guess that their childcare on Saturdays runs from 9 - 11, so I missed the boat. However, the gym is really small and not widely attended so the employee said that as long as he stayed with me he would be fine.

He by me on the eliptical and the treadmill, and I officially have my own 4 year old trainer! "You aren't going fast enough, Mommy." "Run for me, Mommy, faster!!!"
So I beat myself up on both machines, not for long because it's been too long since I worked out.
Then we head into the track room. We both shot baskets, which was great. They have a few hoops inside for the grown-up types and a basketball game over by the child care room.
THEN... we raced. :) They have a 1/8 mile track, complete with lanes, so we raced two or three times.
THEN... I did some leg weights which happened to be where all of their gymnastic stuff is, so while I lifted, he flipped and flopped around.
Then we headed out. He LOVED it. I think it's really cool and he told me on the way out he loved exercising so we make that a regular thing on the weekend.

I am also thinking about ordering this:

This guy is a saint with a web group I frequent and I think his stuff is worth a shot. My neuropsych really wanted me to start fitting in exercise whenever I can and I think this is what I need to help me get a little more motivated.

I am doing okay on taking my meds as well, finally got out the ol' nursing home day of the week pill dispenser, I think that will help me to stay on track. I want to make sure that it's not that I *THINK* that I'm doing a good job and skipping a few days of the week.

The break in the weather has really helped to improve my mood. Our forecast is fab for the whole week, so I'm hoping that will help me stay on an upward swing...

Okay, my ladies... how are YOU doing???

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Scaled Back - A Weight-Loss Poem

I walked to the bathroom and what did I see?
The number on the scale winking at me!
The bright green numbers made me smile;
And if I could, I'd have walked a mile!
Since I haven't really been up to the task
Really, what more could this girl ask?
The numbers had shown a respectful dive
and stood out gleaming...

165!