Ok, this has been a difficult couple of months for me. I'm so afraid I'm going to go for my weigh in this Thursday and she's going to tell me again that I've gained weight again. So I got my butt up out of my chair and went walking today at lunch. I was able to do it a few times last week to, but I just feel like I'm back where I started. I guess that's why I think I need this surgery, because this is how it always ends up. I lose 15 - 20 pounds and then gain it back and more. I don't know what they'll say if I go in there and I've gained again. I thought about cancelling and skipping this month, but then I realized that my insurance said I have to be in the program for 6 CONSECUTIVE months.
Then, like I don't feel bad enough already, I took my son to his first ever petland birthday party and he started taking pictures with my camera. He just had to take one of Mommy holding the beared dragon lizard. OMG! what an awful picture - and no, I'm not posting it - I already deleted it;)
So my goals for this week - not month - but week, is to walk every day at lunch and drink an instant breakfast shake with 1/2 a banana. Plus I'm tossing around the idea of calling the YMCA (which I have had a membership at for 2+ years and don't use) and seeing what I have to do to get an exercise routine. I noticed on their webpage they do it for free. Maybe that will get me motivated and my butt in gear!
4 comments:
Wow. Babe I am right there with you. Unfortunately, while my setbacks only effect me self-esteem, yours can effect the whole lap-band process and that's downer. But, bright side (isn't there always one??) is that you've recognized the troubles and set a plan of action in place. I know it's not easier to follow, but we're right here with you every step of the way. Just tell us what we need to do for you. Help us help you. :-) (and this isn't the first time I really wished we loved closer so we could help each other in things like THIS!)
One week at a time, that's the best plan! Actually an even better plan, just get through today. You can do anything for 1 day right? So just focus on today and what can you do today to make yourself feel great and move towards your goals. Don't worry about tomorrow or next week, just one day at a time...and suddenly it will be weeks and months and you'll have developed new habits to replace the old. Good luck and keep up the positive attitude!
Thank you!! I walked 19 laps at the college branch gym yesterday and I talked my girls into doing 10 minutes of pilates with me last night! I felt great when I woke up this morning - now to get through today:) Just say an extra prayer for me. I've been asking him while I walk to give me the strength to do this. . .
Love ya!
DON'T GIVE UP!!!
Your friends are here to tell you what is the best for you and like Amanda said, get through one day at a time. We all have days/weeks where we try to go back to the old way of doing things.
Just keep visual reminders of how good you feel when you eat right and excercise. Maybe post its at your desk, on your fridge and some of the other places where things get out of hand.
You are doing a GREAT job!!!
I know you can keep it up!
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