I've been a bad, bad girl...

Here is a quick run-down of my progress:

1) Morning routine... improving in consistency. Biggest battle now is getting up on time, I have been late the last two mornings in a row.
2) Evening routine... MUCH improved, also helping the morning routine by getting clothes and odds and ends done before bed.
3) Meds and supplements... MOST improved at this point, starting to become a habit without relying as much on queues, and also starting to get into the same habits for Nathaniel.
4) Massage and muscle stim. for neck -- the worst. Cannot improve on everything overnight, I suppose. I have been in a lot of pain lately as a result. Going to hook up to the stim now as a matter of fact. I am off work on Friday and Monday so I should schedule a REAL massage and start getting back on the right track.
5) Keeping a clean sink every night before bed. This has also been difficult to keep up because of the two boys in my house and mostly because it's not in my nature. I'm really working hard, but some times I just put it off.
6) Writing... well, I think I'm a little behind schedule. I have been thinking about sitting down and banging some stuff out a lot lately, just haven't had the fortitude to go through with it. I will be updating my other blog today or tonight as well.
7) GYM... ummmmm..... no. I have to say I haven't been a single, solitary time since I started writing and I really feel badly about it. My eating has been poor as well, the two things are always linked for me.

All in all, I am making progress, but I am taking on a lot at once so I need to give myself some small credit for continuing to persue it and not throwing in the towel on everything because I have missed a few things here and there.

The one thing that I can't understand is this, and maybe you can understand what I'm saying here...

I *KNOW* how good it feels to accomplish my goals. I know how good I feel physically and mentally when I work out. Why do we consistently NOT do things that we *KNOW* make us feel good, but are GOOD FOR US??? This is something I struggle with every day... procrastination, excuses, whining, feeling sorry for myself. I get infuriated with myself, and with my life in general when I can't keep up these good habits, and yet, I always seem to slip into the same bad patterns. People have made millions writing books about HOW to improve yourself, but no one can tell you how to remain consistent. I suppose it's just a lot of trial and error and changing your life.

I hope everyone is doing okay and I want to see YOU posting soon. :)

/blog. K